ithinktoomuch's journal

I feel that the Citizens of the United States should not vote in the 2008 presidential election.

I question the sincerity of people that speak out against war in effort to achieve peace.


In order to climb a mountain, one does not begin the journey by protesting the height; for the energy spent to make such protest will not diminish the height of the mountain, instead the mountain will remain too tall to climb, for that is all the protesting was intended to affirm. The energy spent in effort to protest the act of aggression is energy not invested in peace. Yelling at the bad guys only tells them that they are bad; Telling ourselves over and over again that this war is bad and must be stopped is futility at best for anti-aggression is not peace (it is fire fighting fire). Why complain? Why tell other people to not fight? Are people really so disconnected with the peaceful lifestyle they claim to support that they believe apples grow on citrus trees if they tell them to? Is the peaceful journey an act of opposition to the force of evil or an active manifestation of peaceful intention? When a voice speaks out against war saying that it is bad, does the speaker not realize that war really is bad as long as they (and other people like them) continue to call it so. To what peaceful end does such effort lead?

Today i realized that right now is a wonderful time to be alive! changes are about to happen that will define the beginning of a new era in the history of humanity. This is a time of great uncertainty. Its like walking through a fog, affraid because you cant see the ground, and because you have nothing clear to focus on ahead of you. With each step you have to consider so many possibilies, that you feel lost, not because you cant find your way, but because there is no way to find. This is a new path, in to unknown territories. No map will navigate, no lite from the past will shine through; We have only hope in the god in us to triumph over the demon. We have only our faith that if we follow the way of ways, our feet will land on solid ground. I fear for the suffering of humanity; I hope for our survival; I have faith that we will make it to a new day.

When is time… when is the time? It wasn’t today. Maybe tomorrow  there is so much to do, and my understanding affords me no clue… what to do. When it is all done, what will it become…. What has the past become today? Confusion. The cycle of humanity… the cycle of the collective consciousness is approaching a flat line. This is the time to find a spark, and bring back the dynamic between life and death. Life is death, and death is life (not one without the other), this is the life experience… this is the death experience… the dynamic is where we exist, and without it (the space between; infinite shades of grey) there is no room to exist… without the dynamic of love and hate; for love flows from the same source (energy) as hate, there is no room for the feelings (the love experience, and hate experience) to resonate in the soul… where does life go when the energy to sustain it has been exausted? It gets tired, and sleeps…. as the heart beets in the spaces between, it too shall find the space that can not be filled; the moment that measures all moments, for it is of no beginning and no end.

What do i think…. Well, I guess it’s a lot less then I would expect. Seems like less noise, more certainty… I’m not privileged to speak with certainty. There is nothing real in the mind. There is only the mindful reflection of the real world outside. Our thoughts do not manifest… our actions manifest… the consequences of our actions motivate… our intentions inspire… but what do I do! Do I only think and act.. how do I manifest? As thought… as action… as consequence… as inspiration… am I my own inspiration… it comes from without the mind and body and soul… it comes from where they do not go… beyond what temporary rules make real… not the moment of truth; the context where truth is irrelevant… no, too complex! Context? Relevance? Faith>truth>fact>image>…. Where is reality… is it all… real>faith>…where am I… am I real? I=real>faith>… what am I not… nothingnothing….
How does a thought evolve… where is a thought motivated.. and how… I am not part of the equation! I see it, does it see me…. Yes! The consequence of action is an affirmation that I am to I and to what is not i… hee hee  i am part of reality... (am i reality)... i cannot think my self alive. alive is what i think i am? maybe i do think myself alive.. if i am reality (part) then i am not of the mind... yet my mind has an image, a fact, a truth, a faith, a reality that become the mindful perception of my being... where do i look to see... what do i see... if the eyes are a window; what light shines through to my body? to my mind? to my soul? to me! oy veigh