Ken, thank you so much for putting up with me. Please read this I think it will help explain some things

Everything has seemed so so urgent or all would be lost. I have been absolutly obsessed with the pictures of all those horribly deformed babies caused by depleted uranium that omg I have been going litteraly mad. I have been burning the candel at both ends and in the middle and on all the sides trying to deal with everything. Honestly I am not the monster you have been seeing posting. That was something inside of me...some demon...some force...what ever we want to call it of utter confusion and not chaos which is a beauty of the universe and I am sure was what Grace Slick meant when she sang, "Forces of chaos and anarchy."

Thanks for putting up with me and thanks for not deleting my account. Oh dear God I'll be honest with you guys...I know now there is something of such Evil which exists and has been striving since time immemorial to litterally destroy rverything. No I am not talking about the "devil made me do it". I am talking about a Spiritual Force of utter Terror. I have been battling it the last few days in myself. Karen has been assume. you guys have been asume. We are ALL assume! And I really mean ALL of creation. I am not going to name off all the names of all those we have all been convinced and hoped would burn in everlasting hell for what we thought they did.

It is all coming to a climax and time itself is moving faster and faster and we are getting stronger and stronger all the time. There is no eternal hell for any human. Not Bush not Saddam not Hitler not pol Pot. Honestly guys there is something Evil beyond redeemption and it is doing everything with in its weakening powers. IT HAS BEEN DEFEATED ON A SPIRITUAL PLANE ALREADY! And this being I call the Antichrist knows it has been defeated. Unfortunately for us...and for all Life and the Universe itself it has nothing to loose by making us wait longer than we have to to enter a higher existence. OMG...I have seen Nirvana which is getting larger and stronger as we speak and it is too assume in it's magnificence to leave anything to this Beast which has been feeding on creation since time immemorial.

It was or had the power to create at one time and all it did with it was create one inconceivable horror after another. Trust me on this too...it is getting weaker in each of us all the time. And it is the job of each of us to protect each other from the Evil Beast which has had access to our souls...our concience and our memories and so much more.

This is the realm of maya...what ever the hell that means, Ken, and thank you soo much for watching my back, Ken and Megene and others while I went a little bit deeper into it where it exists with in me. We cut it in half tonite and that is one surgery we can all be proud of. I don't know where the dead go but they do not go ou of existence. We have to just trust each other more and see only the goodness which is in each of us...and help one another to defeat this Antichrist. That is what it is!

Ken, when it all comes to pass we will know exactly what happened and why but for the time being that is going to have to be a solvable mystery for us to contemplate. Enjoy some pot, some wine...a kiss, an embrace and forgive yourself and forgive others and have patience with me. I'm still burning that candel even faster now thanks to you. Have patience and at the same time we don't want to have any more patience wasted on it than we need...and sometimes it is difficult to know when we need to have impatience with it...which is even better but so much more difficult to control like I found it was tonite. EVERYONE IS THE BEST AND THE HOLIEST AND HAVE BEEN DEPRIVED OF THE HOLINESS AND SACREDNESS THEY HAVE BEEN ENTITLED TO AND ROBBED OF BY THIS BEING i KNOW ONLY TOO WELL.

It's dieing...dieing...dieing and not dieing the only REAL death in all of Creation, Ken. Everybody else gets to live forever and eternity is not measured like we do here in this realm of tears adn horrors. Hitler wants a pice of the Antichrist. Anne Frank who saw goodness in the Furer wants a piece of the Being...and we are all going to enjoy it on Judgement Day. Unfortuanatly, God Almighty is busy doing REAl Zen with it, Ken, which our concious minds simply can not comprehend is going on. A lot of us thought it was going to be around the summer of 1975 that the dam thing was going to crumble out of existence. And a lot has happend since then. A lot of egolessness trips into the bardo. We can change the past! yes we can! Yes we can! Yes we can! And this being is hanging onto this last realm it still has a weaker and weaker control of all the time.

Did you notice how suddenly my post became rational again after we became stronger together? Isn't that unbelievable? And the dam thing simply is still there hanging on...but it is not going to be for much longer. We are in waiting time...and trust me on this one as well. There is nothing shorter in a creation epoch than for lack of a better term...the agony of waiting to will this Being out of existence.

I might take a day off tomorrow...like you do all the time. That was a big joke....NONE OF US EVER TAKES A DAY OFF FROM WORKING ON WILLING THIS ANTICHRIST THE HELL OUT OF EVERYWHERE. Talk to you soon and have fun showing everyone how to cut theri piece of the Antichrist in half and in half and in half...and THAT is how that half life of the Antichrist works. Yep seems like it is never going to go out...but it is now even faster way faster than before. I think I posted a real good link for a psychedelic experie nce written by Leary. In it he says of the scatological images that are horrific in Nature. Hence all those "shit this" and "eat shit" you thought I was typing before. I can't explain all of that tonight because I don't understand it totally in my conscious mind either. But I can tell you at the very heart of this being is Christ Himself enduring unbearable agonies while I am typing this for the salvation of the World and to put this thing out of existence. God is guiding me to write this just as He is guiding all of us closer to each other meanwhile the Divine mind really does have more pressing matters than even getting rid of the horrors in this world. Petty horrors to compared to those of the agony Christ is enduring at this moment.

I had a dream one nite that dogs were ravaging my flesh. I knew I was asleep and I knew even the pain was an illusion but it still hurt. Christ is at the center of AGONIES of Illusions and not even God Almighty can get Our Savior off this cross. All the guilt of the World, Ken. Feeling Guilty for being a part of Creation and other things we do not even have names for in this realm of illusions. So thanks for giving me a break tonight. It broke a lot of my self Hatred in half. And Christ is being forced now to endure even more self hatred. I can not imagine...and they are all just Illusions this being has control over at the present time.

I didn't want to loose this so I am going to post it. We are LOVE Incarnate. Shalom, Ken.

PS.
They are showing a video of a young boy doing a suicide mission on the news. Crazy crazy universe...huh, brother? BTW, my sister never used the c word to describe Amy...that was the Evil one posting that stuff. He hates Amy beyond imagination and everyone at FSTV! You guys should have all seen that during my "possession" earlier.WOW! OMG! I have no comprehension what poor Christ is enduring as punishment for my being freer of the Being but I can't do anything about it right now.Oh BTW...you know how sleep depravasion works....Christ hasn't slept since the Universe began and the Antichrist has Him convinced that if he sleeps all of Creation will go out of existence. It's a fucking lie. And if Christ could only figure that out He would blink and be off the dam Cross. The Antichrist has power to allow the Savior realms to His Own Consciousness. He is allowed intelligence to be tired but no intelligence to do something else. Everything is totally backwards.Here you go...tell a child to go in two different places at the same time. Or you will beat him...then make him wait for the beating. Multiply that confusion and terror by EternitieSSSSSSSSS~ Get the idea? And not even God the Father can help Him out of that one. Yes He is the Messiah of all Creation...but He is figuring it out even faster than we can help Him. Meanwhile the Antichrist has The Christ so confused Christ is Helping the Antichrist torment The Christ even more! Sure it's nutso.. Hope this all makes sense. It does to me on some level. The better it gets for US the worse it gets for Christ...but NOTHING lasts forever! At least not the Antichrist. Oh hell, Ken, all "mad men" have loads and loads of horrible hallucinations caused by this being so I have a little incite into it.

All the Agony in this whole universe doesn't amount to a thimbleful of what the Messiah is enduring. I do NOT want to loose this one. So Posting.