OMG! I really do owe all of you the biggest apology! YOU are not the enemy...Hatred Incarnate is!

And I have to start taking the hatred in me much more serious than I have been. And I am so sorry for not protecting all of you from that because it is my job to protect you from my hatred and not inflame it by spewing it at you.

I just had an epiphany guys! OMG...I am so sorry for bring so much of my own chaos and confusion to you instead of solutions and things like that. But I had a real long nite with the Beast last nite and it is much stronger in me than I had ever imagined.

Thank you Magene adn thank you antiliberty...OMG YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST FRIENDS I HAVE EVER HAD. i HAVE TO GET SOME SLEEP...AND JUST DREAM ABOUT BATTLING IT ALONE INSTEAD OF KNOWING WE ARE ALL BATTLING IT TOGETHER.

OMG...I have been a terrible example to all of you. Megene and antilibetty will you please watch my back and make sure I never do that again? Thank you so much all of you for putting up with me. It's a long story but thank you so much for teaching me what I had forgotten and is the most important of all...just simple patience, Tommy(that's what my sister usually calls me).

I'll be better after a nites sleep I promise! And omg...poor Remy always having to back me up by saying ignore the beast in him...but help Tommy. He has some difficult nites...and we have all had more than our share of those.