Shalom, Appallad...

I'm not sure that the chasm you see between us is bridgeable, at least as of now, but since your trying to reach out you leave me no choice but to lay down a plank on the other end of the divide and hope for the best. Though as someone who is a "friend", "a barbarian", "consumed with hatred", "non-human", "like an animal", and no doubt so many other things...I honestly am not sure where to begin.

So I'll try beginning with what a psychologist said in a book to a young girl, who was a schizophrenic and, among so many other things which exacerbated her illness, and unknown to her parents, also a victim of antisemitism at a camp they had sent her to for a summer. "I Never Promised You A Rose Garden" and I never meant to imply that it would be easy to..."survive" one of my posts.

After all G-d does have reasons which we mere mortals can not fathom...which I would even allow for a possibility of but I am not going to take that to mean that I can not demand an accounting of any G-d who is out there as to why "...every living thing with in the walls of Jericho has to be exterminated...both young and old, both male and female...as well as all the animals."(Torah)

Nor does it mean I can not demand an accounting of any All Compassionate and All Merciful Supreme Being...as to why "the hand of the hungry should be removed for stealing food from those who have more than what they could ever consume...and who are simply too selfish to share it with those who have nothing".(Qur'an)

And you may not understand what I am about to say to you, but I am going to throw it out here for you in the way I honestly mean it to be understood or for your personal enjoyment of tearing it to shreds...if that is what you wish to do with it. But I lost my sister in the World Trade Center...and it was long, long before it ever came tumbling down. I lost her in the way that so many others were lost in Dachau, and Treblinka and the other places where EVERY one's G-d gave new meaning to the phrase "life is cheap"...and the cheapest of all life one would have to think...is human life. My sister committed suicide...only by a different means that what those who jumped out of the flaming inferno did.

And her children were lucky in some ways I guess because like most of the survivors of those who died at the WTC...her life insurance was paid up...but none of her family were entitled to any special "bonuses" because her life hadn't ended in the immediate geographical location of the two towers. I don't know how your brother happened to die there on that day. I don't know if he was just visiting a building or was on one of the planes or if he was actively involved in the daily business that went on there...among other innocent things like the trading and bartering...of actual human blood on the overseas commodity market...or in arms trade...or what ever other activities that did take place there on a daily bases and which the utterly insane and depraved feel they should be allowed to engage in..."peacefully".

It is to my great shame, that I do not know Hebrew which if I had may have helped you to understand me better though even if I did that is not necessarily a guarantee that we would connect, and while I do have very many good, as well as poor excuses, for not speaking or understanding Hebrew it is still an even greater humiliation to me that I do not know any other language than English and probably never will...and with out going into why that is I know I have more than enough valid reasons that have made me have to endure that ignorance in my life...so I am forced to communicate to you in English however limited it is.

So here it comes, it is NOT a mitvah to deliberately misconstrue and misinterpret what someone is saying especially when there are so many ways that people unknowingly, and unintentionally, misunderstand what each other are saying.

But here is the complete paragraph that I wrote and that you quoted only a part of, and at least appears to me, managed to deliberately hack out a few words that changes the whole meaning of what I said.

Life is cheap...it is the cheapest commodity on the planet...and the more innocent and pure it is...the cheaper it is. As for me, I don't know one name of any monster born as a result of depleted uranium being used...but I guarantee you, those God forsaken bastards will be legions compared to the insignificant amount of useless lives that were lost in the towers. And for me, they were utterly useless and devoid of value for the simple reason...they were so costly to the rest of humanity to maintain.

I really didn't think it was going over board especially with how I ended it implying that if someone reaches a certain point in wealth which impoverishes others then no less so than the nazis were to the Seventh Day Adventists, the mentally ill and challenged, the Gypsies, the communists, the anarchists, the infirm and crippled, the Jews and in time EVERYONE including themselves...then their existence becomes simply too costly to the rest of humanity to maintain in the way of human suffering they cause to others. But maybe you need to have what I posted explained even more. So I will try to do that, however much good that will do, because regardless of what anyone says or writes or means...it can still be taken out of context and totally distorted.

"Life is cheap...it is the cheapest commodity on the planet..." Is merely a statement of the reality of how humanity, and especially the upper eschalons, views the less politically powerful, and therefor, "lower" members of our species. And for me that is among the greatest abominations for any of us to commit and in able, by our actions or inactions, such a thing to exist for even an instant but for us to allow it to continue day in and day out with out ever living for no other purpose than seeking it to end...is singularly and totally unforgivable! And what kind of madness is it that allows a life form claiming to be "intelligent" to take care of "our" weapons of mass destruction better than we do the vast majority of humanity they are claimed to protect? And from what are they suppose to protect us from? Death? Freedom from want by all the wasted human energy and resources they take to bring into existence?

"and the more innocent and pure it(life) is...the cheaper it is." Is nothing but the reality of how we view children...if not our own...then others. We kill theirs for killing ours..."they" kill ours for killing theirs. Meanwhile these innocents don't even have an idea of what name of God it is that they are dieing for...or being killed for...nor have any of these TRULY innocent victims been asked if they feel any of these wars are worth being maimed and crippled for life for the alleged reasons they are claimed to be waged for.

"I guarantee you, those God forsaken bastards and DEFORMITIES born as a result of depleted uranium being used! will be legions compared to the insignificant amount of useless lives that were lost in the towers."

Depleted Uranium has a half life of 4.5 BILLION years! And if we continue using it at an ever increasing rate until "dirty bombs" have become the norm which have exploded everywhere and if we are still around for say just another million years in the sewer that will make of the entire world, my conservative guesstimate is that the amount of Jews alone who will be born deformed and die as a result of our use of that weapon being used today will be of such proportions that EVEN the number six million will seem minuscule by comparison! And that would just be the casualties of the Jewish nation and faith. And that is not even accounting for the billions and billions and billions and billions and billions and billions and billions of other members of our human family as well down the generations who would be equally attacked by OUR weapons of today and whose effects will be felt in the millenniums and millenniums yet to be. And if you think that scenario is absurd let me remind you that such a thing is happening even as we speak to those, mostly children, who are victims of land minds left from a war that started and and ended(?) before they were even born.

As for the 3,000 people, who I still say were no innocent children in my eyes anymore than I am innocent for not striving harder to end the madness going on in the world, but using their deaths as an EXCUSE to drive us blindly into a war against an oligarchy that the oligarchy in this country had been supporting up to a very short while ago and which in fact actually put Sadaam's oligarchy into power as well as gave him the nerve gas he used against the Kurds...if anything should profane their memory far more than what you feel I have done. For this oligarchy here is no more concerned with "justice" in any abstract sense than any other oligarchy of any other country or age has been.. And I hate to burst your bubble but our so called "leaders" are as corrupt as are the "leaders" on all sides of the insanity who are now unifying the entire world into the inevitable result of our waging an indiscriminate war against ALL of the generations yet to be.

And allowing 3,000 deaths, regardless of how they occurred, or who is responsible for them, to be used for such mindless purposes makes less sense than blaming some long dead pre-human who dropped a rock on the head of another monkey for the One Long, Everlasting and Seemingly Never Ending War we have been waging against no one but ourselves since time immemorial..and justify that war because we need to have an unattainable closure for the death of the pre-humanoid...at the bottom of the tree.

But as for bringing up the Holocaust, Gadolah, don't go doing so if you are hell bent on dividing us all into screaming matches over whose holocaust was, and is, the worst in order for us all to blindly enjoy another insane war leading to yet another holocaust. For the cry of "NEVER AGAIN!" is an obscene prayer of biblical proportions unless we all mean "NEVER AGAIN FOR ANY OF US!" Because the simple truth of the matter is...the entire world has continued and still continues and seems to find it easier and easier to sit back disinterested in any holocaust that is not being specifically waged against one's perceived minor branch of the human family...instead of viewing any holocaust as part of a much more nightmarish HOLOCAUST that is part of our collective memory and shared historical human psyche. And a nightmare from which NONE of us can escape...ALL the tears that have gone before us already into filling up an abyss of suffering...one tear drop at a time...with no other purpose than to deny that there could possibly be any God of goodness what so ever.

And it is really a mute point, but I did read Hitler's "Mein Kemph"...and sure enough Anne Frank was right on the money. Because during some point in his life, I believe when he was trying to be an artist in Vienna and it has been SUGGESTED by historians, who know more useless bull shit about Hitler than I, that he may have been selling and prostituting his body to feed and cloth and house himself during that time, he stated in the book that during those days he "actually felt sorry for the Jews" and the way they were being mistreated by the rampant injustice of antisemitism that even he perceived going on about him. Of course that was obviously before it became a rabid disease to the entire world...when he became infected by it. BTW, it's up to you...but I would not recommend even bothering to read the useless cocksucking book. That was the only line it it which indicated at some point in his life he had a chance to keep his humanity...before abandoning it to "the end justifies the means"...and getting rid of anyone who wasn't useful to that usual brand of madness.

Although the fuhrer had no difficulty at all making an exception for at least one Hasidim to work in a very high capacity in his war machine. A man by the name of Fritz Harber, who was the one who gave the world the great and infamous weapon of Zyklon B which was the gas used in the gas chambers. And after converting to Christianity to practice his particular brand of "grey magic" with chemicals with out the stigma of being Jewish to interfere with his work anymore, even though we both know you do not loose your Jewishness in one generation by renouncing it, Fritz then gave birth to this great quote, "In a time of peace a scientist belongs to all of humanity...but in a time of war he belongs to his country." Fritz's wife, no less so than my sister, died a victim also of suicide...and in her case to protest nothing else but her husband's efforts to have "more than what others have"...regardless of how it is obtained.

But getting back to Hitler's book for a moment, after the line I told you of he immediately went back to his rabid ranting of how the "Juden" were responsible for virtually everything from the death of Jesus and killing God 2,000 years ago to everything else that has gone wrong with the world...and don't look to me for guidance on that one...because I couldn't fathom the reasoning he had then anymore than I can comprehend the reasoning of any weapons of mass destruction designers ANYWHERE in the world today!

However, I have tried getting through to at least one skinhead neo-nazi group on the Internet...and no less so than the Court TV forum, and quite a few other places as well, my first post was deleted from their site for being too dangerous to their cause of world despair they advocate and my second post got me more threats for being anit-nazi in a shorter period of time...than anyone else had on their forum of hate. And I have no doubt and in fact know that if I had been raised in North Korea or Iran or a lot of other places...I would have managed to have had myself killed a long time ago, which is why I expect when the police state does inevitably come to where ever it will come to next...and if I am still here...I can honestly say...I will be among the first to go then as well. But then who ever said...saying the world is round and revolves around the sun...wouldn't come at a great price to those who do?

OMFG! How I run on at the keyboard!

Laila tov, Gadolah, stay safe and toda raba for your post...and my honest sympathies for the loss of your brother and thank you for yours for my sister,
Zen ;-)

PS.
I know this really needs editing for more clarity and condensation...but I had an appointment to see the doctor today to get medication to help me forget...I'm among those who already haven't survived...the camps or the crematoriums.**

**See this movie for what some of us have become: The Man In The Glass Both

PPS.
I know, Gadalah, I do NOT try to court votes to win any popularity contests by trying to reflect what people want to hear or ESPECIALLY mouthing some politically correct and acceptable horseshit. And I openly admit and am proud to say I am at war with the entire world...or at least with the ignorance and real depraved callousness and indifference to the plight of the poor everywhere. But I do not want everyone to think like me either. And on my death, I hope nothing I have ever said is even quoted for being of any value because I want people to THINK for THEMSELVES...and only the living can do that not the dead. However, as far as us "living"(?) adults go in the present...I think we can all safely say that everyone of our lives are utterly useless and devoid of any meaning...until we ALL realize we are in this row boat together...and it is SINKING!

PPPS.
Dear Almighty Fucking God, if you are anywhere out there...let me sow utter despair and hopelessness where there is nothing but VAIN and EMPTY hope...trusting that we will all wake up from our superstitions that we have any right what so ever to ask You to take time out form Your busy and lonely existence...to get us out of this fucking mess...that we made!